For the first time in two weeks, I'm finally going to try to put some real words here, no not one of my usual psychobabble how unfair, life could be. I'm going to be blunt and straight about what's happening with my life.

I feel like I'm some shallow bitch for tackling this issues and Im actually trying to solve this as if it was some kind of problem. How I wish I could be Nancy Drew for one-hour. Sometimes, I am capable of handling situations. Before you start thinking I'm some air-head, let me just say that , "I AM REALLY GOOD WITH GIVING ADVICES TO MY FRIENDS". Yes, there's only one person that honestly I can say, I am rather a pain-in-the ass everytime she's experiencing the dilemma of life. Yea, its Josh, Oh well, I've tried using psychoanalysis to her problems but much to my chagrin I ended up tring to tell her to get wasted. A good friend, eh? Anyways, now, I guess its time to put my blunt-ness ang vulagirty to it's rightful situation.

NOW.

All I care about is my friends. But, somehow somethings bothering me for the past few days. I love my best friend. Yes, we just can't easily throw it away like trash. Or let's say , down the drain. But, what if you find out you both like the same guy? I'm willing to sacrifice and forget about my feelings towards this person for her. I can forget about it, and I can easily move-on because it's not too late. Thats how much I love her. Besides, I'm not even sure if that guy likes me too.. Oh well, better NOT take the chance.

So, here's the confusing part. Besides my best friend and the guy I like. There's this guy I used and until now, I SUPER duper like parin. Yea. He's a great guy. It just hurts me to know that a guy so sensitive like him can somehow be insensitive in a way with what his equilibrium in life is. I could here the warmth of his voice and yet, sometimes, there could be coldness inside. I guess, I'm the type of girl you could leave because you know there's a lot more girls out there, that might be better than me. I know there is. It's just sad to know that, I was like some trial and error.

and i feel so awkward about this other best friend of mine. My ex is actually hitting sakanya. Yea, it's ok. My feelings for my ex is purely platonic. It's just weird.

- i don't want to tell him.. better to keep quiet and disregard what I feel for him, 'coz I know he won't return the favor of loving me back.

-random icons iba jan.. suicidal and slashing. :P

 - yea best friends DO tell everything. :( someone's not telling me the truth.

 - I am worth it. I'm sad to know that .. your patience ran out. :( I thought I'd be wearing that gown in 9 yrs. . But, i guess..